I don’t think of myself as ambitious. Stubborn, yes. Determined, yes. Ambitious? No. I mean, I certainly haven’t climbed the corporate ladder. I don’t make 6-figures at my 9-5. I live in a small house with nothing exceptional about it. It took me ages and ages to finally make it through college. But as I was writing this and thinking about it, I happened to type ambitious into Word, double-click on it and look at synonyms. You want to see the list?
I don’t know how much I like pushy and I’m not so sure about ruthless but determined, go-getting, striving. I’ll take those.
Why was I even thinking about the word? Well, this is the story of me striving to figure out how to get it all done and I was wondering if that makes me ambitious. Is it ambitious to think I can do it all and still have time to enjoy my life? Enjoy my kids? Is it ambition that made me want to change the way things were? Am I ambitious because I think everyone is wrong when they say you can’t do it all?
If that means I’m ambitious, then I’ll take it. I think I can do it all and be happy instead of constantly feeling overwhelmed and like everything requires too much energy or is just too hard. I know that having a child is a big transition, and for me having a second child was more of a transition than I thought it would be. I mean, it took me a year to even figure that out.